Slipping Away

I talked to Richard yesterday to inquire where we were in the job process. I was disappointed in the outcome of the call, to say the least. He informed me that they had to work through all of the details in staffing yet so they weren't sure where exactly where we stood. He also told me that my asking price was at the higher end of the range that they imagined. He said that he will be talking to Bruce by the end of the week and I should know something more by then. I am quite disappointed because I thought this was a slam-dunk offer, and apparently it wasn't. While I guess it isn't over, I do have to start looking in earnest again.

Looking for a job sucks. I feel so inadequate on the one hand, and on the other hand I feel that this whole process is my fault. I feel that I am stuck where I am because of the choices I have made that have lead me to my current position. My experience is in governmental accounting, and I think that is hurting my chances of finding something outside of that field. If I had made better choices and managed my career better, I would not be stuck where I am. Instead I took the easy road and here I am.

I have two choices. One, I can suck it up and continue what I am doing. Or, two, I can get back to finding a new job. My instinct is to just stop looking and continue to do what I am doing, but deep down I do not think that is what I want to do. The problem is that I do not know WHAT I want to do. My discontent may just be my normal disposition. I guess that is my next step.