I have lost my mind

I cannot explain it, but I know how to play poker. I also know where my weaknesses are. I also know where I spew money in poor bankroll management situations. For some reason though I do not stop. I have heard that the definition of insanity is doing the same thing again and again, expecting different results. So here I am, playing short-handed, playing two games at once, calling more than I should and expecting to win, when I never have under those scenarios. Also, I stay up late and then do not wake up for the gym. I repeat this pattern because either 1)I do not care about my poker bankroll 2)I think I can change the results 3)there is some addiction drawing me back to the unhealthy behavior. I am going to go with the addiction answer. Which is probably a combination of 1 and 2. I do care about my poker bankroll, and when I lose part of it, I desperately want it back and convince myself that I can win it back quickly. The truth is I cannot. I must stop this or my bankroll will be gone. When I play within my capabilities, I can win. I must start building my bankroll back up with smart play. I will start today. No more crap poker.