At least I wasn't drunk/Tilt

I usually have a good grip on my emotions, especially when I play poker. I sometimes do get upset, but it is not too often. I say usually, as there are always exceptions, such as week 26 when I lost 200 on the table and then 200 playing blackjack, of course I was fill with Powers, but that is not excuse. Last night though WAS one of those exceptions. I sat down to play a little poker and noted that I was a bit tired, (breaking rule # 1, play only when can play A game). I sat at a 2/4 table, which is higher than my normal limt, but no too much so. After a few hands, I noted that the table was a bit looser than I liked. This increased my implied odds, but added to my varience. For instance, my set of 5's was beat by a flush on river. Because there were 5 of us in the hand, the villian was getting the right price to draw. I did not make an adjustment for this level of play. I also violated rule # 7 by playing every day this week. Anway. I was down about 60 when I was dealt a playable hand from the SB Q8. Of course there were 5 of us that saw the flop. Flop was Q83 rainbow, so I flopped 2 pair. So I be out. The game was loose, but it was passive and I wanted to get as much money into the middle as I could. Everyone called, so the pot contained $20.00. Turn was a K. I checked, figuring that someone surely had a King and would bet. A middle player bet, button called and I raised. MP and Button called, pot now $44.00. River K. The worst card for me, as now I am pretty sure one of the other two has trip K's. I check, MP Checks, and button bets, pot is now 48 and it costs me $4 to call my pot odds are thus 12:1, which means that I need to be right 1 out of 13 times for this to be a correct call. I call and button shows K3o. I lost, and for some reason lost my mind, even though I knew I lost. I think it was the fact that no one should have entered the hand in the beginning with K3o. Instead of being rational noting that, in the long-run, I would get chips from maniacs that play those cards, I went insane that I lost the money. Of course this is on top of the other beats I received earlier which were not necessarily bad beats per say. When I went insane, I raised and called to river just hoping to give away my money, which I did do, instead of just calling it a night.

Oh well, it will take me a few weeks to wing this back, but I shall by following my manifesto, at least until I don't...............